The difficult second posting

Ok so post one may have been dramatic. It certainly was for me to find it all out. Perhaps to put it into perspective I should give you some background. Howe we met etc. and later on I'll highlight a few more of the interesting things that W's mind can do. Yes I did say interesting, call it perverse but we both find her brain pretty fascinating. So, how did we meet? Well, we me online weirdly enough, one of those freebie dating sites that you can get. I'd already met a few people off there, but couldn't find anyone I really liked. Then one day a message popped up from a girl with quite a funny name. the name made me smile, but the message she'd sent immediately sparked with me. See, thing is I mentioned quite a lot on my profile (yes I talk too much, sorry!!) but the main gist of it was the journey can be worth the destination. Let me explain: You want to go camping, you go and it rains every day. Do you sit back and bemoan camping as being rubbish in the rain, or do you take a few cans and have a good time despite the weather? I know lots of people do the former and more power to you, camping can be miserable when it rains, but you'll develop a bond if you stick with it, some kind of weird feeling of glowing pride and triumph over adversity. W's message basically said she was that kind of person, and I liked that. So we chatted. Lots. She talks a lot and so do I, so meeting up was easy, it went fine. She's nothing like what I thought was my type, but she spoke to well and so much that I was attracted to her anyway, and meeting her in the flesh blew all my previous opinions away. I'd always preferred the fleshier (?!?!) girls, size 12-14, but yet here was this stunning size 10 little blonde thing making me very quickly change my perspective. Suffice it to say, she's hot, and quite a few people thing way out of my league, and I'd agree!! Hopefully from the above you can see that on the surface she's totally normal. She has a normal job, a house, a car and pets. All normal. In fact, I still can't quite believe that all what has happened to her is true, given how she is now. I write this blog mainly so I can vent my feelings about things to someone (anyone!) about how I feel, because I have to be strong for W, I can't have an off day if she is having a bad day, her off days would make anyone else never have a bad day again. But you know what's great? in the last week a relative of mine was rushed to hospital, far form where I live. Not only did W come to visit with me, but waited in the car while I went in for over an hour and was as solid a rock for me then as anyone could wish for. That to me is mind blowing. Here is a girl who must have all those images in her head all the time, the hooded members of the gang who raped her, who held her own despite her struggles and screams, the friend who betrayed her and raped her knowing her past, the family that can't cope with her. How can anyone's head deal with all that!! Mine barely can and it didn't even happen to me!! I think that's all I want to write for today, there is lots more I can tell but I want to put a bit every day. I also don't want it to be too long, you'll all fall asleep! But please, comments and questions are welcome, and I will post more, if not tomorrow then Monday night. Thanks for reading.